Before I believed in the Lord, I was really bad to my family and to myself. I was a very stubborn daughter to my mom. I always argued with her. I talked back, but what she really didn’t like about me was the fact that I was lesbian. I always hung out with my “girlfriend”. It was my third year of high school. I was never serious about my studies. I just liked to hang out with my classmates and my girlfriend. I learned to drink and go to disco with them and wasted my allowance there. I also ran away from home for days to weeks to indulge myself in drinking and partying. I longed for true love. I had a girlfriend but my heart was not satisfied. I couldn’t feel my mother’s love. I wanted to be happy but always felt empty.
When I finished my second year of college, I decided to go to Manila with my girlfriend, but I didn’t tell my family about it. I just told them I was taking a vacation there. But my plan was actually to stay there and find a job. Then I worked in a garment factory, where I met some Christian coworkers. Two of them always invited me to go to church. They knew from my appearance that I was lesbian. They told me that homosexuality is sin, and they told me there is only one God. In my heart though, I doubted because I thought the Catholics never mentioned about homosexuality. They kept inviting me to their church for a year. In return, I always mocked them and talked bad behind their backs. I told them whatever happened I would never change my religion but die as a Catholic. Afterwards, they no longer invited me. But strangely, I was still expecting their invitation somehow. One day, a voice in my heart told me to go with these Christian coworkers. So, I invited myself to their meeting. The Lord spoke to me through His salvation and forgiveness. I then realized that I was a sinner. In tears, I asked God for His forgiveness.
When I accepted the Lord as my Saviour, I felt real joy. He fully accepted me even though I was a sinner. When I went home, I started to read the Bible. Later on, I found from the Bible that homosexuality is a sin. Through the Bible, the Lord opened the truth to me. He changed my whole life inside out. Since I believed in Him, I really feel the joy that I had been looking for. I felt satisfied with the Lord’s love, and I feel the joy in Him. The Lord did not just save me but He let me know also that He is the Only true Beloved who loves me wholeheartedly and never leave nor forsake me!
